Fresh Start Challenge Day 12 Bonus: Gaston, Oops I Did It Again

I wanted to beat Odette. Seriously. I didn't want to talk to you. I hated your guts. But you know what? I turned it into enjoyment for me. I figured since you were so bent on talking to me and thinking that I liked you why not have some fun?

Honey, you broke up with your girlfriend thinking I was going to go running to you? Seriously? No I don't play that game. Get real I had some self worth at that point. And let's face it I don't date guys that get excited about cars that have been "souped up" and still look like they belong in a junk yard. 

I never got excited about seeing you. You actually repulsed me to know end. I hated it when you would message me the only good thing was you would listen until someone else started or wanted to talk. I hated hearing about cars or whatever you were talking about. I hated hearing about Yugioh. The only thing I gave a notion about was your son and even then you didn't seem too concerned. 

Honestly, you are one of three people that could have gotten blown away last night and I wouldn't have cared. I would have went to your funeral to make sure you were dead. And I am not usually that spiteful but you seriously pissed me off. You know those people that just won't take the hint. You don't have friends for that reason or the ones you do aren't that cool? Yeah it's you not us.

And I swear to all that is right and good stop taking pictures of yourself without clothes. Nobody wants to see that. Seriously, you don't have anything to show off. I don't give two craps if your mom thinks you are endowed. I feel sorry for her if she thinks you are packing. And her other props to you... your arms? Yeah about that okay... Okie dokie... No.

You^

Us^

Take that into consideration the next time you want to take a picture in your underwear with holes. And I am not even going to go there. 

But besides that. Let me tell you your other reason why you never stood a chance... I am nerd and a geek. However, I am one of the intelligent ones. You know one of the ones that knows what the world pulchritudinous means and how to use it. You may want to brush up on that if you don't already. Because you know what really made you Gaston? "We can read together you with your books and me with my Manga." OH HELL NO! I have more respect for my brain than frying it with that crap and yes I know Odette read it too once upon a time but ya know what? Chris made her stop and she has loved not reading it and going back to real books. 

So Gaston. I am so glad I passed you along to my sister and I have no regrets about that at all. Because I got a real fairy tale. Not some half assed shit. So thank you for making me realize part of my worth that way. And oops you taught I was in love and sent from above, but I am not that innocent.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 12: Dear X

I am not hating on +Hunter, +Jessica, and +Odette. But I am soooooo thankful that I don't have to write about Gaston. I knew better, sorry Elle!

Dear Exes,

I honestly couldn't pick out which one of you to write about except one and he will get a paragraph to himself. However, to all of you as a whole. You weren't bad guys, you all had your good points. I enjoyed my time with each of you. I know some of you I used for my gain and some was the other way around. Either way I am glad I had each of you in my life.

As for Ken. I am still sorry I pushed you away. I wasn't ready to give up cutting even though you tried so hard. I am sorry. You were an amazing guy. You probably have made some girl very happy. And you were the first one to make me stop hating my life at that point.

I still want to thank you all. Regardless of what happened between us, you guys all deserve someone special.

Love Always,
Mary Ann

Fresh Start Challenge Day 11: Pink.. Everywhere Pink

Yes pink cookies! I have a cookie monster by my side and I had to have my pink fix.


1 stick of butter softened
1/2 cup powdered sugar
1/2 cup flour
2 whole egg whites (do not use whole egg or the yolk will turn cookies orange)
1 whole pouch Betty Crocker sugar cookie mix 17 1/2 oz.
13 drop red food coloring (or until desired pink color is achieved)
1 cup baking chips (dark chocolate, semi-sweet chocolate, milk chocolate or Frankie's favorite Reese Peanut butter chips)

Preheat oven to 375 degrees
Cream butter and cookie mix.
Add powdered sugar and flour and mix until well blended and crumbs are fine.
Add egg whites and mix until well blended and mixture sticks together.
Add red food coloring, several drops at a time, mixing after each addition until desired pink color is achieved and is uniform throughout the dough.
Stir in chocolate pieces or whatever you added in.
Use a spoon to drop cookies onto ungreased cookie sheet.
Bake for 10 minutes, or until set but not brown.
Allow to cool on cookie sheet for 2 minutes before removing cookies to cooling rack or wax paper. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 10: Pleasure ...and Pain

I was thinking of keeping this post PG rated.... Nah.... What's the fun in that?

1. Number one thing that is a guilty pleasure? An enema. As long as I want it, if I don't want it kills. 
2. Seeing Frankie in his towel... And ripping it from him.
3. Being blindfolded. Not going to lie. I love it even outside being sexual thing. 
4. Glitter everywhere. Ah come on you guys knew that was coming! 
5. Flipping someone's world upside down without them knowing it was me that did it. Honey come on I seen the bus coming too bad you didn't. And based on your face it hit where it should have.
6. Dog clothes! Yes I dress up my dogs. My boss knows that's why I am late have the time. She used to be pissed at me but she is one of my best friends so she just shakes her head now.
7. Country food, I am not a country girl. I was born in Seattle. My mom is from Hoover but let's face it. I am not a country girl. But I have my streaks of country. 
8. Strawberries or cherries dipped into things. Frosting, sugar, cheese, chocolate, and even sour cream and onion dip. I've done it.
9. A spanking... And it was looooooong before 50 Shades of Grey. Don't believe, I'll give you a print out of my Google search. 
10. Pink champagne. I do not do regular champagne. I won't do regular champagne. 

Bonus: An orgasm. Come on no headaches, and no Tylenol. You people go ahead and use something that can be recalled my buzzer and my hand are my besties. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 9: And Twist

My LAST kiss, was freaking amazing! We went dancing tonight. My last kiss was when Frankie picked me up country style and I leaned down and kissed him while running my fingers through his hair. We had a blast tonight.

His kisses always make me think of our first kiss because in reality he is a terrible kisser because he is so shy. He isn't like most guys that are trying to rip your clothes off with a kiss. Frankie's kisses just send electrical shocks right to my pelvis without how gentle he is.


And yes +Hunter and +Odette I had to ruin this post with the video!!!

Etsy Wants

Wants

Black Lace Lingerie Angel Sleeve Kimono Robe

Iphone 5C case,studded iphone case,Harry Potter Deathly Hallows pink leatherette wallet case

It Does Not Do To Dwell On Dreams And Forget To Live, Harry Potter, Crochet Cup Cozy

Pemberley Rose -- Book Lovers' Scented Soy Tart -- Pride and Prejudice

Pride & Prejudice first paragraph - Chiffon Scarf in Magenta

Fresh Start Challenge Day 8: It's Always There

Above are words I hear daily. No not because of me but because of the man I love. His disease at first scared me. And it's true he doesn't look sick while he is walking around the mall laughing. But if you watch while he eats at the mall there becomes a change in him. He is scared to eat. If he eats he is on edge after that. 

That's what I worry about all the time. I give it to God but then I carry the worrying as well because I feel like I should being with Frankie. I will say this, I've quit complaining about my life since I've been with him. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 7: Grow Old

In my family you would think I would be the loudest and the most outgoing in my family. Well you'd be wrong. Reality is I'm the quiet one. I have two older brothers, a sister who is 9 months older than me (I was a premie, I came really early.) Then I have four younger sisters, a baby brother and new sister on the way. In addition my parents also adopted my cousin when she was just 3 months old. She's only a year younger than me.

Out of my siblings my older sister gets my vote for my favorite sibling. Elle and I just click. Sure we fight like sisters but that's what they are there for right? We always have a blast together.

My mom hasn't always been the best mom. We hated each other for a few years. But the past year we have really gotten close. This is the first time in my life of me getting close to her. The advice she gives is awesome. I never realized how much she and I have in common. And we have talked about the fact that us being so much alike is could be a base for why we weren't able to live together long.

As for my dad well he works all the time. He is constantly gone and I think I see him a handful of times a year. He is one of those parents that on your birthday hand you a plastic square thing tells you to have fun and that they are proud of you. That's my dad.

My grandpa (my mom's dad) is awesome too. His exwife sucked and everyone in the family hated her. But he is so much happier with his new wife. They are all smiles and laughs. They go on adventures all the time. They laugh and are just totally cute.

I love my cousins. So many of them are my friends. We laugh constantly and sing and dance. Well the ones on my mom's side.

My stepdad's family is freaking awesome! They are rowdy and hilarious! They are all southerners and it's fantastic.


My future family is promising. Lots of laughs with Frankie, Chris, and Odette. I am ready for the naked Frankie army!

Our Dark Side Has Cookies and Italian Food

A lot of my friends blog, and three of my best friends have the best blogs!

Odette has been blogging for almost two years!

Hunter has been for a year!

And Jessica like me just started!

These girls are my life! I love them to death. They make me laugh. They make me cry. They make life beautiful!

Okay starting with Jessica's blog. She has the blog: All Jeweled Up.

These are my favorites of hers;

Tree of Life - She does amazing jewelry! She is very talented!!! I love it!

The Pagemaster - Seriously this right here is why we are so awesome best friends! She loves books like I do to the point she lives them like I do!

All Inked Up - The meaning behind her tattoo brought me to tears. It was very moving!

She is fabulous at writing and she has some crazy topics throw at her all the time. She arises to the occasion.


Moving on to Odette's blog Decoding Odette.

These are my favorite of hers;

Future Mother - This post sticks out to me because I forgot that there was life before she got Jackjack. I remember with this post.

Makes Me Smile When He Calls Himself Snape - Seriously her most read post. It's fabulous. It's intriguing.

Mrs. Who - I love how Odette evaluates herself in this blog. It's interesting to read!

Odette had stopped blogging for a while because she became Jackjack's adopted mother. But she is back now and I can't be happier!


And finally Hunter's blog: The Girl From Alabama

My favorites from her are;

Bark! Bark! Bark! - This was just seriously precious! This post was "wrote" by her dog Theo! I love it!

Tree - This is still one of my favorites from Hunter.

Disney Day 6: RunDisney Princess Half Marathon and Downtown Disney - This is my all time favorite from Hunter. Possibly because I was there too but it's just so hard not to go back and read again and again!

Hunter loves make-up, fashion and several other things.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 6: Tell Me What Makes a Man

Frankie and I had a terrible fight around the time the time this was challenged. We almost ended up, but something happened and I swear I felt my world fall away from me. Frankie broke into song when I told know if I could stay with him if he kept doing something. He never sings to just me. He sings with his brothers and at the retirement village but that's different. 

Any other girl, I'd let you walk away

Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok

Tell me what makes a man

Wanna give you all his heart

Smile when you're around

And cry when you're apart

If you know what makes a man

Wanna love you the way I do

Girl you gotta let me know

So I can get over you

What makes her so right?

Is it the sound of her laugh?

That look in her eyes

When do you decide?

She is the dream that you seek

That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong

When you get on your knees if that would bring her home 

I couldn't believe he was singing and his words hit like a ton of bricks. I couldn't leave him. We spent the night reading to each other while crying and I swore to him I wasn't going to leave. The situation has been solved with us talking about the problem and both of compromising. 

Now why do I love him?

• He is my biggest supporter. Yes best friends even above you. It's true. He gave me over hundred different options to pick from whenever I felt like cutting.

• He is very loyal to people, even those who have mistreated him.

• God is his first priority. Out of his brothers, Frankie is probably the most religious. Him and his triplet, Chris. 

• He puts me before any other human being, including his favorite niece. I get onto him for that because she thinks Uncle Frankie put the sun in the sky. 

• He doesn't complain about going to work, (seriously even I know I'm lucky on this one.) Instead he is so grateful that he is even able to go to work. Which to makes me smile because sooooo many people piss me off when they talk about how crappy their pay is or how crappy their job is. Be grateful you are able to go to work and have a job. And Frankie never grumbles even when it's a small job.

• He never puts me down. Sure he jokes about my shortcomings or silly things I do. But he is never cross or too harsh with me.

• He understand why I only drink Evian water and refuses to buy any other brand. 

• He lets me see him when he is in true pain. This took forever for us to reach this level in our relationship. He was raised in a family where tears means you are wuss or really struggling. And the Raposo brothers believe that neither one of those is good. And quite frankly I can understand that.

• He saves me my favorite kind of cookie (sugar) when he gets a variety pack from someone. 

• He doesn't scare the life out of me when he is driving like his brothers do. He has amazing driving skills. Even if he does rev the engine. 

• He surprises me at least three times a week with different things! Sometimes it's flowers, a date, or a meal. But it's the little things I just love like when we are going on a long drive he puts a ring pop in my seat!!! I love that.

• He loves to read out loud and I could listen to his voice all day. I actually recorded him reading the other night.

• My final thing is what stood out the most to me the first time I saw him. His caring nature stood out but his piano playing skills are exquisite. I have listened to him play for hours. It is what calms me now.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 5: Frustrating

Unlike my fellow friends, +Hunter and +Jessica  I managed to use some things from exes that annoy me. Now not all men do this, however, these are the things that are nails on a chalkboard to me.


1. Seriously Gaston I don't like you. Just because I'm nice to you doesn't mean I like you like that. So back it up.

2. Pull your pants up. That fad went out years ago.

3. Woohoo the underside of the hood of your car is painted. Please enlighten me on what the purpose of that is.

4. You scored points playing a card game with fictitious animals on it, of course I'm happy for you and so proud. You know about how happy and proud of me when my winged eyeliner matches and is straight.

5. Scratch areas. Hey my boobs itch but you don't see me looking like a chimp to get the itch to go away.


Yes I know not all men do these things. And for #3 some girls may like and understand that, however, I am not one of them.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 4: Cozy Up By The Fire

What I wear to bed varies.

I love wearing yoga pants or leggings during the winter with a tshirt.

During the summer I wear a sleep shirt or shorts with a tank top.

I have two or three night gowns, chemises, or babydolls. I wear them on special occasions. I know that sound dirty but it's not I wear night gowns like on Christmas Eve or something like that.

However, my favorite lounge wear outfit is an oversize cable knit sweater with long socks. I always enjoy wearing that or an oversize sweatshirt.

Umm That, Uh I Can Explain

"What's an odd item in your purse right now?"

Some rolled up bikini underwear.

Yeah Aunt Flo is visiting me right now and I have extra underwear in case I have an accident. I have the pair wrapped in ribbon in case it falls out of my purse. That way no one will really knows that it's underwear. Trust me, the bag check at Disney World has seen interesting things over the times I've been there.

Things like:

Adult Diapers
A jar of legos
My bra
Tampons
Frankie's Underwear

April 2014 Disney Haul

I am so excited about doing my first Disney Haul!

Belle Singing Doll and Costume Set - 11 1/2'' - I love this so much! She sings "Something There" and "Beauty and the Beast."

Minnie Mouse Charm Bracelet - I bought this for my little sister Angelia.

Beauty and the Beast Story Book Figurine by Jim Shore - I didn't have this one already! I have a ton of Beauty and the Beast figurines. This was a must buy it will look awesome in my living room. So many people are amazed/shocked at my living room but if you look close you realize it's the ballroom from Beauty and the beast.

Belle Sequined Tank Tee for Women - Frankie had this behind his back and told me to close my eyes and then held it up. I squealed!!!!! The cashier said it reminded her of the scene where the beast gives Belle the library. Lol I love it!!!!

Beauty and the Beast Musical Figure - I bought this because it's identical to the one in Be Our Guest the restaurant. That castle will always have a special meaning to me for the rest of my life.

Jack Skellington and Sally Tee for Women - How awesome is this going to look with glitter leggings and black or purple Converses?!!

Jack Skellington Tank Top for Women - I am thinking yoga capris with Yellow Box flip flops?!!!!!!

Mickey Mouse Mirror Ball Tee for Women - If it sparkles I buy it!

Belle Fashion Tee for Women - I loved how Belle looks on this shirt. It soooo refined.

Midnight with Mickey Backpack by Vera Bradley - I started using this in the parks. It works so awesome and is so soft.

Disney Resorts H20+ Sea Salt Body Treatment Set - I have become addicted to this!



Frankie's Haul for Me - He bought all of these things without me knowing about until the last day. I cried not going to lie.

Beauty and the Beast: The Broadway Musical Charm Bracelet - It's gorgeous! I love it!!!

Beauty and the Beast Glass Flute Set by Arribas - He had them put our wedding date and where on there. December 20, 2014 London

2 Beauty and the Beast Glass Frame by Arribas - He bought two of them for this reason. One has our engagement date and says "Cookie Monster and Belle" and the other one has our wedding date and says "Frankie and Mary Ann."

Apple Cinnamon Spa Water

It's an internet sensation, and it really does work.

Put apple slices in the bottom of the pitcher and then add the cinnamon stick. I would save a few slices of apple for

Cover with ice about to the halfway point of your pitcher and then pour water half way as well. Place in the fridge for 1 hour before serving.

Nutritional stats:
Calories = 0
Fat = 0
Fiber = 0
Protein = 0
Carbs = 0

Did ya know that the artificial sweetener in Crystal light causes headaches? Yup very true and have calories!

This works so amazingly. We were on vacation last month and my cousin would drink this with all meals and she lost so much more weight than she normally does. She toned up too. It speeds up your metabolism and I have to say it works! It tastes like a crisp day spa water. It lasts up for 24 hours in the refrigerator. 

Fresh Start Challenge 3: Give Someone Else a Chance to Fly })i({

These are the charities I support:

• HEALS
• TOMS
• TWLOHA
• Toys for Tots
• Operation Christmas
• RAINN
• Invisible Children
• Cutting Depression

I am still highly active on Tumblr people ask me all the time about the Butterfly Project. Well over 50% of self harm people are on Tumbr myself included. My scars will always be there. It's a part of who I am and I have no reason to be ashamed. There is a Tumblr page that has a donation link that I donate to: Instead of Cutting. They have all thinks and support you need.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 2: Tea Parties

There are many crazy things I do while no one is around.

I have tea parties with my dogs and stuffed animals. Seriously. It helps remind my manners in social situations.

I go all out too with sugar cubes and biscuits.

Yep that's how weird I am.

Fresh Start Challenge Day 1: Mary Ann

M - Memorable

A - Alluring

R - Rare

Y - Youthful

A - Admirable

N - Naughty

N - Nefarious

Day 7: Libra

All of these things are true about me; yes. But is it because of how the Sun was on the day I was born? Eh no. It's based on the turmoil or the happiness I had in my early years. That's really about it. There is no reason to believe that because a paragraph says that a lover will enter your life that it's going to happen.

Day 6: 30 Facts

1. I have put edible glitter on chicken before and yes it was yummy!
2. When I'm shaving my legs I rub the cream over my legs and then I start writing my name with my finger or doodling... Hush its me.
3. I am banned from going to the dairy section with Odette when grocery shopping. The last time I screamed at the guy behind the orange juice that it didn't look like Florida in there. He laughed. 
4. I have a floor piano that you play with your feet.
5. Yes I have so much glitter on at times that yes one time at the gyno pulling off my clothes there was glitter on the floor so I can imagine the view he got.
6. My country shows when it involves a lifted truck. And yes Frankie has a lifted truck. Trust me as soon as another ring is on my finger we are going wild in that bad boy.
7. I love sock buns on Saturdays. 
8. I'm starting to find it hard to come up with things to fear beside me dying and my love one dying because I'm facing so many.
9. I own a library in Seattle. It's small but it's mine as a gift from my dad.
10. I learned how to pole dance by accident. My friend lived in a old firehouse.
11. I have stabbed someone. It was my brother and he was an intruder in my apartment.
12. I love leg warmers. Proof I belong in the 80s.
13. I have been tossed in the air and then go stuck in a basketball goal. 
14. I cry when I have to play the game Operation. When I was little the noises were too loud for me and now it's just something I cannot handle.
15. My mom has bought me condoms before; she has all of my sister. For me, Lillian, and Elle it has been interesting.
16. My grandmother who I do not like has had so many plastic surgery that we call her Couch.
17. I love ice skating and I think I'm pretty good at it.
18. Gone with the Wind is my favorite book of all time. Surprising huh?
19. I still have all my Barbie Computer games. 
20. I broke my dad's computer playing the Harry Potter PC game...
21. I have been on club's VIP list several times.
22. I have all of the Hallmark Gone with the Wind ornaments.
23. I can take any object and make it have glitter. True story.
24. Nancy Drew was my best friend for a long time.
25. Gummies are my favorite.
26. I have tied a man to the bed. Sadly for him I had no intention of doing anything to him.
27. The only water my dogs and I drink is Evian. Seriously
28. Thank goodness I don't have sensitive skin because I love the scented tampons. Yes I'm the girl that actually buys the Fresh Scent ones.
29. My toothbrush is 1D!!!! (Hey it was Bieber I have moved up in the world!)
30. Even my bath towels sparkle because they have sequins on them.

Day 5: Fly On Little Butterfly

I believe the last time I actually tried to kill myself was December 1, 2012.

I was seriously depressed and I just let the razor skim over me. And I went from room to room thinking how could my life get more crappy if I let it?

• I was a nuisance to my friends (still am but they find it enduring now!)
• My parents didn't talk to me and would forget about me. (My mom has gotten sooooo much better now that she is closer to me. Dad still has work to do.)
• My job was my favorite (Yeah 5 year olds are not my forte.)
• I was living in a tiny apartment.
• My best friend had one a heck of a hunk.
• My daughter was dying and I had never got to hold her.
• I had blew my chances with one heck of a guy.

First the headache started and then I started blacking out really bad.

The thing I remember next was my front door falling flat on the floor.

I was really hoping it was death, but it was a man grabbing me. My vision was so blurry. I could just see a shadow. The shadow was striping my clothes off and I remember thinking "Great now I'm getting raped by a intruder."

Then I was hauled into the shower and hot water hit all my cuts and the pain was unbearable almost. Then the shadow became an image of Chris and he was fully clothed and was grabbing soap. I tried getting away but he tightened his grip and rubbed soap straight into cut. It burned and I screamed and I started crying and begging him to stop. He told me I wanted to feel pain so I was going to feel pain. I kept screaming because it was burning.

He rinsed me and I was thankful the torture was over. Well I thought it was over.

He started pouring rubbing alcohol all over and told me to bit his shoulder because oh my God did it burn. I knew I was going to lose my friends that I just made. When Chris started to bandage me up I heard a gasp and looked up to find Odette looking at my cuts. 

There was four cuts that Chris gave me a glare that made me want to shrink under a mountain for protection. They were morgue cuts on my wrists and on the back of my knee.

After that Frankie and Chris both started helping me get me to the point where I rarely think about cutting anymore. They introduced me to the Butterfly Project. There are still times when a blade looks like fun and I just go to Chris, Odette, or Frankie himself and they draw a butterfly on me instead. 

I have done so well since then.

 

Day 4: Religion.

Religion-

: the belief in a god or in a group of gods
: an organized system of beliefs, ceremonies, and rules used to worship a god or a group of gods
: an interest, a belief, or an activity that is very important to a person or group

I have dabbled in a lot of religions. I'd even hit the point of no religion at one point. The last one I was before I became what I am today was Wicca.  But I gave that up because it was strange to me and something didn't feel right. I still felt alone.

Then this strange big eyed strawberry blonde showed up at work. She had everything going for her. Even when weird and bad things happened she was happy. I was jealous of that. I even gave her heck for that. I was jealous. And one day, she was singing a song,

Make 'em wonder what you've got make 'em wish that they were not on the outside looking bored. Shine let it shine before all men let'em see good works, and then let 'em glorify the Lord.

I remember because the song talked about barbecuing a hamster and being a vegetarian. Trust me that lyric can really catch your attention. The more I got to know her the more I realized that being a Christian was what made her happy all the time. Sure she had bad days but she would get over them in ways I could only imagine getting over a bad day.

I wanted that simplicity and quite honestly she is contagious with her happy self. She became my friend and I was soon saved as a Christian.

Now I this hasn't been an easy change for me at all. There are days when I'm angry at God, there are days when God and I have this long talk about what I want. And you know those moments when you land on you butt (forget your knees who the crap lands on their knees?) God is basically telling you to look around at what you have and be grateful. It's a hard pill to swallow but it's true. The things I take for granted every day someone else is wishing for at the moment very moment.

What was difficult for me to swallow was when my child passed away. I was never able to hold her because my parents didn't want anyone to know about her. It was more than me being unmarried and pregnant. It was so much more but that's a different post, possibly.

God and I became close after that. You see my daughter was born with so many complications that she couldn't save herself. So I know God has her and she is safe and not in pain. I want to see her one day. I thought that reason was enough to give my heart to God.

But God protects me in ways that nothing else can. God is bigger than karma, destiny, and luck. God can change everything in instant. I've seen too many miracles happen now that I have taken off my rose colored glasses that the world tries to shove on my face daily. I now thank God daily for the many blessings he gives me.

I enjoy our church who does crazy things to get people in church. Our preach has the motto "Come to church for the wrong reason stay for the right reason!" We fed over 1000 people last year for Easter just because we had an Easter egg hunt and games. It was fun and we had so people come to our church after that.

The hard times come and I find someone to help me through it that is a Christian too. And sometimes it's my best friend's (the chick with the big eyes and strawberry blonde hair), her fiance and he talks and prays with me while he lets me pretend he is a punch bag all while letting me take it out on him. God knew exactly what I needed and most of the time it's not what I want. That's why He gets the glory.

People say it's hard to be a Christian and that's because if it was easy everyone would be one. So I'm sorry to the old friends I had but you have no idea what you are missing, but then again I'm not sorry. I just feel sorry for you. I have a wonderful challenge that makes my life shine brighter and my soul will live on forever because I know who died for me!