Fresh Start Challenge Day 30: She Leaves a Trail of Glitter Wherever She Goes

Dear Self at 15:

Life seemed hard. School, cheerleading, abuse, and not being able to drive. Trust life will get suckier next year at sixteen. Cruelty of life will play in after that. Smoking will come too and the drinking will get harder. The cutting will get worse. The cutting will get horrible. You will want to die soon.


Dear self now:

Congratulations for putting the cigarettes down, for really applying yourself to work and school. And for finding someone who loves you for you. Who doesn't care that you had a baby. Who doesn't care that you can't run a washing machine. Doesn't mind your fur babies.

You are doing so well. You are going to be married soon and have tiny ones all over and it's going to be amazing with the cookies and the glitter.


Dear Future self:

You deserve a cookie. Married 15 years now, not bad. Kids are growing like weeds and Frankie is still hanging in there. You look fantastic and still rocking the glitter I see. You are still doing marvelous things! Keep reading!

A Basket Full of Cookies

I have been terrified of this weekend.

Why you ask?

Well Frankie said we were going to talk about us having children. You see Frankie has always been unsure about having kids because of his chronic disease, Crohn's. For those who either are just plain assholes or really don't know; Chronic Disease is a long-lasting condition that can be controlled but not cured. NOT CURED! And yes that's my Frankie.

He doubts being able to being stable enough to give them the love and support they deserve. I personally think he would be the most amazing dad. For starters, he gets to be the stay at home parent who spoils them rotten with cookies and ice cream. But he doesn't see that. He thinks he would be distant because he would worry.

He fails to realize that he is amazing uncle!!!! They don't come running to him over Chris for nothing.

But this morning I was totally swept off my feet and reduced to tears.

I woke up to a box of tiny cookies. This were macadamia nut and white chocolate which is my second favorite kind of cookie! The top cookies spelled out "Eat Us." Eat them I did.

This was below the cookies. No this is not my picture this is the website's picture.

We are going to have little glittery monsters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Etsy Wants

Wants

Black Lace Lingerie Angel Sleeve Kimono Robe

Iphone 5C case,studded iphone case,Harry Potter Deathly Hallows pink leatherette wallet case

It Does Not Do To Dwell On Dreams And Forget To Live, Harry Potter, Crochet Cup Cozy

Pemberley Rose -- Book Lovers' Scented Soy Tart -- Pride and Prejudice

Pride & Prejudice first paragraph - Chiffon Scarf in Magenta

Fresh Start Challenge Day 7: Grow Old

In my family you would think I would be the loudest and the most outgoing in my family. Well you'd be wrong. Reality is I'm the quiet one. I have two older brothers, a sister who is 9 months older than me (I was a premie, I came really early.) Then I have four younger sisters, a baby brother and new sister on the way. In addition my parents also adopted my cousin when she was just 3 months old. She's only a year younger than me.

Out of my siblings my older sister gets my vote for my favorite sibling. Elle and I just click. Sure we fight like sisters but that's what they are there for right? We always have a blast together.

My mom hasn't always been the best mom. We hated each other for a few years. But the past year we have really gotten close. This is the first time in my life of me getting close to her. The advice she gives is awesome. I never realized how much she and I have in common. And we have talked about the fact that us being so much alike is could be a base for why we weren't able to live together long.

As for my dad well he works all the time. He is constantly gone and I think I see him a handful of times a year. He is one of those parents that on your birthday hand you a plastic square thing tells you to have fun and that they are proud of you. That's my dad.

My grandpa (my mom's dad) is awesome too. His exwife sucked and everyone in the family hated her. But he is so much happier with his new wife. They are all smiles and laughs. They go on adventures all the time. They laugh and are just totally cute.

I love my cousins. So many of them are my friends. We laugh constantly and sing and dance. Well the ones on my mom's side.

My stepdad's family is freaking awesome! They are rowdy and hilarious! They are all southerners and it's fantastic.


My future family is promising. Lots of laughs with Frankie, Chris, and Odette. I am ready for the naked Frankie army!