Something I Learned Today

The following isn't always true but most of the time it is true.

Stop complaining! (story)

Once upon a time there was a little sparrow who, while flying south for the winter, froze solid and fell to the ground.
Then to make matters worst, a cow crapped on him. But the maneur was all warm and it defrosted him. So there he is warm and happy to be alive and he starts to sing.
A hungry cat comes along and clears off the maneur, then he looks at the little bird and he eats him.

The moral of the story is............

Everyone who craps on you is not necessarily your enemy.
And everyone who gets you out of crap is not necessarily your friend.

What's Happening With Me 6/29/14

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Let Me Pencil You In

You Aren't Worth Enough For Pen.

I have had many planners over the years. There was the years when the school supplied a planner in junior high and I used it occasionally. The years in high school where I bought my own planner and it didn't work out.

Now I have found the perfect planner. I know the different ways to keep up with everything.

For work it has many advantages from me. I can keep track of when reports need to go out. Meetings can be planned out unless they are unexpected. Conferences with parents can be wrote down. Field trips that will take all day or that I need to dress a certain way for will be wrote down. Also seminars for the jobs as CEP credits.

For home life I can keep up with when I need to do deep cleaning of rooms, check fire extinguishers, smoke detectors, clean the dryer pipes, and clean the oven. When I need to rearrange furniture for special holidays. Also my new obsession (besides the planner) is getting organized. And also home projects like painting, or new pieces of furniture.

For Frankie, I can keep track of his medicines, when he has flare ups, when he has doctor appointments. I also can keep track of our date nights. And things we want to do together like different tastings and concerts. I also would love to keep track of his delivery days where I know it will just be me and Eloise since he will be out delivering. Who knows we may go with him a few times in the future!

For Eloise, of course I will keep up with everything EB related. Doctors appointments, medication, and bandages will all be on record. Keeping up track of more severe blisters in areas will also come in handy. Also for her I can keep track of milestones, first things and first things with us. Play dates I can also keep track of for her schedule. Also in my beautiful blue pen for her I can keep up activities in certain businesses for her. Like Barnes and Nobles has activities all the time for kids! Also any lessons Eloise takes.

For my fur babies I can easily keep track of appointments for them. Their birthdays, their grooming, their treatments, and their training. I love my dogs, they were my first babies so I have to keep them healthy too.

Meal planning will be a little different for my family. Our neighborhood has different dinner parties and we have friends invite us over all the time because they know Frankie and I aren't the best chefs or even cooks. I can however plan out Eloise's snacks and things of that nature.

For family things are more broad topic for the binder. I want to be able to have things written down like family portraits. Also family fun night where we do things together that isn't at home or we have a big fun night where everyone comes over and we play games and eat.

Social planning for me is quite simply I have things from my sorority. I volunteer a lot. I do things for church. Parties, showers, and teas of course are part of my schedule. Of course girls night out and in are going to be in there so we can celebrate!

Crafty things are new to me so I want to be able to write down a schedule for those types of things. For instance a list of projects I am working on that the products needs to be done by next week. Also different expos to go for scrapbooking and card making. Also keep track of certain sales and coupons too.

Pregnancy will come after November. I can keep track of appointments, symptoms, and different classes. I know there are a lot of support groups and I can write down their meeting times. Even after pregnancies I can get stickers for the baby's milestones!

Besides beauty sleep which I don't need a reminder about I know I will have to keep track of beauty appointments. From hair, nails, and waxings I can write them down and be extra happy that I remembered them and show up on time!

If you haven't already noticed, I am blogging more and more. I am starting to make sure I blog at least four to five times a week and sometimes more. I can just get a really wild and crazy hair and just blog sometimes. But I will keep ideas in my planner. Also our city does a blog meet up for the people who are serious about their blogging. I also hope to attend blogging seminars in the future and I can always write those ideas down.

Health is my last thing for me. I love to run and exercise (yes I am one of those people. Don't worry I didn't used to be one of those people.) I want to keep up with hydration, vitamins, how many miles I run each day or week. Also I can keep track of doctor's appointments, dentist appointments, dermatologist appointments, psychologist appointments (Though I am about to cancel her.), and gynecologist appointments.

Wedding is actually going to be a separate planner. I am just really anal about my wedding and there for I just can't bring myself to jot dot things in a planner I keep everything in but I will put a nice big sticker or paper block and write wedding over that square as a reminder!

Homeschooling will also have it's own planner. I am not doing the homeschooling. Frankie is doing the schooling. We have purchased a separate planner from Plum Paper Design in Atlanta, GA. It is excellent looking!

I know I mentioned this in the home section of plans but organizing has become a huge part of what I want to do. Between FlyLady and OrganizedLikeJen my world seriously looks like a five year olds closet when mom says he has to have his room clean in 5 minutes. So I am taking a few steps back and figuring out what exactly I want to accomplish and how to make my life more filling with this planner.

I have a lot ideas I want to incorporate into my planner. Here are a few from different people.

Medication List Laminated Snap in Page  - Frankie, Eloise, & myself.

Medication reminder stickers  - These are for me.

Weekly Pregnancy Stickers  - I cannot wait to use these!!!

25 Glitter shapes assorted pack - Just when I know I plan on sleeping for that time block.

Hand carved rubber stamp - Yorkie design - Dog grooming visits, food, and vet visits.

Best Friends genitals holding hands sticker  - Possible nights of conception.

Cherry Mini Stamp - I will do a cherry layout one week.

Bow Mini Stamp mint rubber - I'm going to buy six of these.... For the Sexy Six.

Owl Mini Stamp Mint rubber - I love this!

Mini Telephone Rubber Stamp Old Phone - I love this! Love it love it!

Glitter Red Washi Tape  - Looks pink to me but hey either way it's glitter and washi tape.

Glitter Blue Rhombus Washi Tape - So perfectly perfect glitter and diamonds.

Little One, Girl - 3 packs of mini stamps - I just love these!

Toddler in a Bath - For cute reminds about picking up bath items!

Miniature Cookies Paper Clips - OMG I LOVE THESE! So freaking dang cute and perfect

For Rectal Use Only' stickers. - Enema reminders and more.

tiny sticker for your schedule - I love these little things

More Tea Please

I wanted more time with Eloise and I got it. Frankie was delivering furniture he had made over the week to their owners today. She was nursing as Frankie left this morning. She did want some solid food afterwards. We had mini banana pancake muffins. We watched PBJ Otter on YouTube. She really enjoyed it and so did I.

Eloise and I cleaned up a little and she was a huge help. I gave her a bath and brushed her hair. To the normal person this doesn't seem like a big deal. But to me it was huge because her skin is so delicate and I am still caution of what I am doing.

I boiled her new plastic tea set to make sure the germs were off of it. Then I dried hers. I got my set out from Teavana the Butterfly Cast Iron Teapot. I decided to have Black Dragon Pearls Black Tea. A favorite of mine. For her "tea" I poured some organic apple juice in t here. I made use the sandwiches above and also some lunch sandwiches too. We had a small picnic on our floating bed on the patio. 

After having our small picnic on the patio we cuddled up for some reading, nursing and a nap. After that I made us both some more tea. Real for me and apple juice for her of course. We explored Aunt Odette's garden for a bit. Discovering that there are some butterflies which made me very excited. 

I decided to make her a sensory bin. I look at what I had and discovered I had plenty of oats for making oatmeal; so in the box they went. I gave her two different sized cups and a spoon. It has now been two hours of nonstop play for her. She pours, scoops, moves, etc. I have been fascinated watching her. 

I did move the box inside so I could start on making dinner and writing this blog. That hasn't hindered her at all. So for our first day alone, I believe it has been amazing. 

Disney Days, Day 2: I Want Much More Than This Provincial Life.

Clutching a book and having people stare at how odd she was, I felt like I had found my soul mate best friend, in Belle.

She loved to read. She read books over and over like I did. People frighten me when they claim they love a book so much yet they never reread it. What scares me even more is when someone doesn't read or claims that manga is reading. It makes me wonder about the future.

I have been there with Belle dealing with Gaston. The ones that feel like you are some sort of trophy that they deserve. It's aggravating especially since people push you towards those people telling you how great you would be together.

And we wished for the same things:

My parents had my life set up for me and I walked away from it. I wanted adventure and excitement! That's exactly what I have now. Just like Belle found Adam. It makes my heart swell looking around. 

I grew up to be Belle. 

Milk on the Go

A month ago Frankie and I discussed what rooms to turn into a playroom and nursery. Three weeks ago I was planning to have children next year. Two weeks ago my heart found my child. This week? I hold my daughter in my arms.

True, life comes with unexpected turns. But most of all? My daughter is breastfed. I haven't had milk in my breasts for five years since I had my own daughter.

I began research and listening to doctors about breastfeeding. My fiance, Frankie, and I did a lot of talking to family members and friends about breastfeeding. Many of our friends and family are breastfeeding or have. I went to my mother who breastfed but also is a retired pediatrician. She helped me get my head together and also start.

Massages and suctions on a schedule were how I started. I pretty much was reading about the condition my daughter has while I was massaging my breasts. My mom ordered me domperidone from New Zealand, I believe. I have not really been on that. I have been working with herbs and vitamins and that is working just fine at the moment building up my breasts. I also have a zStarter Supplemental Nursing System, Supplemental Nursing System™ (SNS™) and Symphony® Breastpump.

Push and shove things started happening and I have Eloise already. She nurses when she first wakes up, lunch and at night. I make very, very little milk at this point in time and she is on donated breast milk. I have had several people tell me to put her on formula but a very low formula. We may try that at lunch in the near future until my milk comes in fully.

The only problems we have faced so far have been easily fixable. One problem was sliding the supplemental tubing in her mouth while she is latched onto me. We got over that one real quick. She became used to it faster than I thought she would. With her having EB nutrients are a big deal and breast milk has a lot of benefits for her over formula. The second problem was my back. I didn't really want to use a nursing pillow. We were given one as a gift so I used it and it does help. What I had to learn quickly was that I cannot just sit however I like. I must elevate my feet to nurse comfortably for me and her.

 I love SNS system but I believe in the future while my milk is coming that I will use Lact Aid. It's a lot like it the SNS system except it's not as uncomfortable. The SNS isn't exactly uncomfortable it's just bulky bottle there. The other is a high grade bag full with the same tubes as the SNS.

What matters is that my daughter gets the nutrients she deserves. I love breastfeeding her. And as for Frankie's bonding time with her. He bonds with her while she is nursing too! When I asked him how this was the response, "I get to hold you and give you support. And as I have my head resting against yours I can stroke her cheek and see the love between our little family." Another reason why I love him.

We are planning on trying to conceive as soon as we are married in November. I am sure then I will have plenty of breast milk for all the children I have.

Disney Days, Day 1: After All, Dogs Were Having Puppies Long Before Our Time.

Patch: That old Dirty Dawson! The yellow livered old skunk!
[growls]
Patch: I'd like to tear his gizzard out.
Perdita: Why, Patch, where did you ever hear such talk? Certainly not from your mother!
[looks at Pongo suspiciously]
Pongo: [smiles guiltily at Perdy]


I love her character. She was classy and a typical mom. I watched this really recently and realized just how badly I love her character. Even better? She adopted 86 children that weren't hers! I love this and yes Frankie said that since I am still missing a dog we may get a dalmatian or a mixed dalmatian.

Butterfly Kisses

If nothing ever changed there would be no butterflies.

My life looking back and seeing pictures, it's easy to see how people thought nothing was wrong. I looked like a rebellious teenager having a wonderful time and living it. Teenage pregnancy, emotional stage, smoke and drank. Only it wasn't that and it's not that for many.

Yes there are the people who cut or even go as far to say the cut themselves for attention. For those of us who have actually been hospitalized for cutting it pisses us off because we are a true cry for help. You have people thinking we are all just cut or are cutting for attention and that's not the case. 

I was raped. Not once not even just twice but for years by a family member. He threatened to kill me if I told anyone. He actually jump started my cutting because he cut my skin. I was scared to death but honestly I started to associate that with feeling calm because when he wasn't doing that he really was hurting me. I started cutting when I started to panic about someone finding out what he had done.

Then I ended up pregnant and I hit severe depression. I carried full term miraculously. I gave birth to a little girl that was honestly doomed from the day she was born. I get frustrated with people, even people close to me that say to me "At least you got to hold her and hear her cry." Excuse me but were you in the delivery room when they yanked her from me? No you weren't, so sorry to be rude, but not sorry; SHUT THE HELL UP! I never got to hold her. I was banned from seeing her and surrendered her to adoption. It was a full surrender because I knew where she was for the next five years. I only have four pictures of her. 

During those years I had a severe issue of cutting. The smoking was second in the worst category. Drinking was as prevalent as the cutting and smoking was during that time. I would party sure but I didn't find comfort in drinking. I still don't. The only alcohol beverage I find comforting is rose champagne and wine. 

Cutting placed me into the hospital twice, both of those times were before I moved. When I moved things got slightly better. Only because I wasn't being constantly ridicule and shamed for having a baby and cutting. Slowly, I realized how alone I was and the cutting got worse.

Last time that almost ended me in the hospital was December 1st, 2012. I didn't end up in the hospital. It's the day that changed my life, forever. Drinking and cutting was it  for me the night of November 30, 2012. I guess I stopped responding to my best friend because from my drowsy disposition. I fell asleep only to be woken up by my front door being kicked backwards off it's hinges onto the floor of my apartment.

I was snatched up and carried into the bathroom. Forced to feel hot water and soap into the places I had cut. I was then held in a lap with alcohol being poured into my wounds. I realized it was my best friend and her boyfriend, Odette and Chris.

After Chris bandaged me up I noticed someone else was picking up in my apartment. My heart about sunk into my pelvic when I realized it was Frankie, Chris's brother. He wanted to talk to me. He told me how sad it made him that I wanted to cut my beautiful body. I watched in amazement as he drew a beautiful detailed butterfly on my arm.

He explained to me that if I cut again the butterfly would die. I looked at the beautiful butterfly not wanting it to die because it was beautiful. I hugged him and it made him blush. He explained to me more about the Butterfly Project. "The person that cuts either draws a better or has someone else draw a butterfly where they cut or whatever. If you cut or self harm then you kill the butterfly But the ones drawn by other people are special. Even just one cut kills all the butterflies no matter how many you have."

They had plans to go ride the Polar Express at the Railroad Museum. So I was put into some extra Christmas pajamas that Odette had and got in the car. The ride there was quiet compared to the screaming I had done of the wee hours that morning. Frankie had managed to write a sweet note on Facebook to me for different ideas instead of cutting to do.

After that butterflies became very dear to me. But my views on butterflies have drastically changed in the last two weeks. It means even more to me now.

I talked at a conference about how not matter how scarred my skin was I was still beautiful. It was then my life changed a second time forever. A little girl about six and half wanted to talk to me about her skin condition and how I really spoke to her. She wanted to meet me. I drove back up there. This girl was an orphan and has a skin condition called epidermolysis bullosa.

I arrived and the little girl excitedly told me she was getting adopted. We talked about her what it felt like to her and how bad she had the disease since there are different forms of it. They are called butterfly children because of their skin being so thin like a butterfly's wings.

Frankie had went with me but had left and wandered off on a trip to the restroom. I finished up my talk and went to go find him. I discovered him playing peek a boo with a blue eyed and bouncing curls tiny little girl. It was over in an instant.

I now sit with this precious little girl who is a suffers from EB as well craddled against me. We are finalizing paperwork right now. I cannot believe that butterflies have changed my life so. And for this reason I will always love them.

TVD Challenge: O Come Ye Ol Faithful

I thought I’d be happier watching Klaus get led away to the slaughter, but for some reason, I can’t help but feel kind of…Guilty. […] See, that’s the thing. We’ve all done horrible things. And I’m sitting here trying to figure out what makes us any better than him. And I think it’s just that we have family we can trust.



1. Amy Stroup “Covering Your Tracks” – Unavailable

2. Julian Casablancas “Christmas Treat”

3. The Kicks “Take Me To The Mistletoe” – Unavailable

4. The Waitresses “Christmas Wrapping”

5. The Raveonettes “The Christmas Song”

6. Sugar & The Hi Lows “Jingle Bells”

7. Cary Brothers “O Holy Night”

8. Bastille “Oblivion” – UK Only

9. Digital Daggers “Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas”

TVD Challenge: Die You Freakin' Witch

My least favorite character is definitively Bonnie. I hate her with a great deal of passion. She likes to blame people for her misfortunes but many time she makes people suffer too.

Perhaps it's because she tried killing Damon to begin with right off the bat and I just cannot get over that. So yeah if she doesn't return for Season 6 I won't mind.

Scrappin' in Alabama

Dream room!

So if you read +Jessica's blog All Jeweled Up, you have read about me! Yup, me! In her post Friends That Scrap Together... it's me she is talking about!


I am skeptical about scrapbooking. I love crafts and things but scrapbooking I don't know about. Card making is a different story. People love cards. I love cards. One of my favorite Pinterest ideas is to take all the cards you got from an event and punch holes and put a flip ring through it and make a book of cards from the event! Neat huh?

My life has been changing a lot lately. We went from dull and boring to speedy and colorful quite quickly since returning from Thailand. Not sure what to make of it but I am letting God's will happen. So card making is one of those things. Card making is the fun to me. The videos I watch on YouTube scare me at times because I wonder if I can ever be that creative. I just have to remind myself that I will find inspiration!

Below are a few things that get me excited about scrappin' in Bama!

2 inch Big paper punch craft punch-- Butterfly - I am sooooo excited about this punch!!!

12x12 Double Page Scrapbook Layout "Under The Sea" - Eeekk I love this layout!

TVD Challenge Day: Don't Pout

Seriously.... Ahhhh the one we all love.... Unless you are one of those weird people actually rooting for Stelana (please go jump off a bridge). But yeah Damon is my favorite character all over. 

Fresh Start Challenge Day 30: She Leaves a Trail of Glitter Wherever She Goes

Dear Self at 15:

Life seemed hard. School, cheerleading, abuse, and not being able to drive. Trust life will get suckier next year at sixteen. Cruelty of life will play in after that. Smoking will come too and the drinking will get harder. The cutting will get worse. The cutting will get horrible. You will want to die soon.


Dear self now:

Congratulations for putting the cigarettes down, for really applying yourself to work and school. And for finding someone who loves you for you. Who doesn't care that you had a baby. Who doesn't care that you can't run a washing machine. Doesn't mind your fur babies.

You are doing so well. You are going to be married soon and have tiny ones all over and it's going to be amazing with the cookies and the glitter.


Dear Future self:

You deserve a cookie. Married 15 years now, not bad. Kids are growing like weeds and Frankie is still hanging in there. You look fantastic and still rocking the glitter I see. You are still doing marvelous things! Keep reading!

Forever

Yes yes yes I know Chris is Kermit. Please spare me the fussing at me. 

Have you just had a moment where in your life you just feel like things are just perfect, carefree, and totally worth being a completely weirdo for? Well that's just what happened. I was singing and dancing down my hall. I had sat down and was reading to start another post but life intervened. 

"It's like I've waited my whole life for this one night. It's gonna be me you and the dance floor. Cause we've only got one night. Double your pleasure. Double your fun and dance. Forever (ever, ever)" Down the hall I had just danced down, came my dancing cookie monster in full song and dance. 

Dancing on the living room coffee table together like we were Kermit the Frog dancing felt so amazing. We shook our bodies to everything was wiggle and jiggly. I think this is why I love him so much. He doesn't act stupid or nerdy. He is just him. 

He is in a sweet and cuddly mood and I am so digging that today after a week of seminars in Nashville. He is making me laugh so hard about why we shouldn't go into town today because who knows what kind of "scary things could be lurking or swagging about" in the mall or other places. He said that from now on my shopping will be done online. Fine by me. I happy with that.

Review: Stella & Dot Getaway - Mariposa

I wanted a bag for the summer that was big enough to put EVERYTHING in! I follow a couple of blogs that talk about Stella & Dot. They were running this special where if you bought a Getaway bag you would receive Hang On bag for free.

I instantly fell in love with this bag! Hello look at the pretty butterflies! Plus is spacious to the max! Because it extends if you need more room. I have even used that feature of the bag too!

I like being able to carry all things I need to seminars including a change of clothes for afterwards and that is what this is great for!

I am loving the fabric inside and out. The hardware on the bag doesn't feel cheap and it's very sturdy. I highly recommend getting one of their getaway bags now.

What Mornings Be Like

I will Kill You.

I love my beauty sleep. I love it so much. Especially on the weekends. Heck, I even managed to talk our pastor into not starting church until later so we could all sleep some more. People say you are suppose to rest on Sunday yet they want you to get out of the bed at like 7 to go to worship. GOD SAID REST PEOPLE!!!! That means you rest.

I am very picky about my sleep. I am picky about my position in how I sleep. I have to be cold. Seriously winter time comes, touch the damn heat around me I swear I will knock you out so fast your head will spin. Put some blankets on you and a sweat shirt on and shut up. I love my coldness don't mess with it. 

So anyhow, how you wake me up is key. Basically you better have glitter, really good food (Chick fil a) or be Frankie. Otherwise it won't be pretty guaranteed. 

Below is what will happen if you wake me up with any of the above things.

TVD Challenge: Fav Female

Katherine is awesome I know that there is a handful of people who think Kat is a bitch because of how she treats Elena, but guess what why should Katherine care about Elena when all Elena has ever done to Katherine is say how much she hates her? Katherine is Nina Dobrev at her best and Katherine's plans almost always turn out great unlike Elena's. Katherine is also a strong female character.

TVD Challenge: Surprise Favorite Male Character

Actually no my favorite is not Damon. Shhhhhh I can hear you all gasping, fainting, etc. Don't get me wrong I love him but he is not my favorite. Not by a long shot.

Klaus

He totally stole the show for me. Okay and Elijah but that's different.

Mmmmmmm now what was I saying?

No More Miss Nice Girl

I will always love Matilda. I would beg and cry to go rent it from Movie Gallery. I connected with the movie better than the book for once in my life. That movie was me. Okay minus the super powers.

I was the kid that literally walked herself to library (and got in trouble for it.) I would spend hours upon hours reading. I knew the workers by name. Some even felt bad for me and would bring me snacks and would let me eat at the counter because I would stay so long and miss meals.

I started school and I thought I would be able to spend all day in the library. My teacher was amazed I could read already in kindergarten so I skipped to first grade. Then I skipped first grade too because I was so advanced.

I fell in love with chapter books at the age of six. They weren't big. It was the boxcar children though. I read and read and read. Books A Million had all 150 of them and I would go there some too.

My Miss Honey was my fourth grade teacher she really embraced my love for reading. She showed me how to speed read and I loved it so much. I would spend even more hours locked away and gone to some far off land fighting for the Confederate side of the civil war.

That's why this movie spoke to me. I felt like her and lived a lot like her.

☮ May Favorites ☼

Eye Make-Up

Stila Magnificent Metals Foil Finish Eye Shadow

LORAC afterGLO Eye Shadow Palette

Tiara Loose Eyeshadow

Paper Eyelashes Bella

Gem Powder Diamond

Mink Lashes Scarlett

Mink Lashes Adelle

Mink Lashes Celine

Lips Make-Up

Teeez Trendy Cosmetics: Golden Glow Lip Gloss (Desert Fire) - I totally stole this from Hunter before she left. I love the packaging that Teeez has and this gloss is just awesome.

Too Faced Lip Injection - I will buy this the rest of my life! This stuff is incredible I recommend it over anything! I have become obsessed with this!!!!

Face Make-Up

2 Count Beauty Blender



UD Naked Skin Weightless Ultra Definition Liquid Makeup

Body

Ben Nye Luxury Powder Banana

Solid Sugar Scrub in "Rock Your Socks Off" - I swear they poured a grape pixie stick into this and mixed it lotion or something and are calling it a body scrub.

South Seas Tahitian Tan Mist

Skincare

Konjac Sponge with Mineral Rich French Pink Clay

Glow Tonic

Hair

Ouidad Climate Control Heat & Humidity Gel

Bumble and Bumble Surf Spray

Bumble and bumble Sunday Shampoo

Fresh Start Challenge Day 29: Dead End

Mrs. Winthrop was peeking out of her window again.

What she saw made her grab her heart as pain shot through her arm.

The world was spinning and becoming hazy.

She just could not believe what she saw.

She tried to focus through the pain and the haze, but the image remained the same.

Finally, her body could not take the shock and she collapsed on her living room floor.

People often wonder what caused the lady to have a heart attack since she was health freak; one of those people who ran and ate green things.

Her neighbor knew but didn't realize the exact cause.

If Mrs. Winthrop had of realized things would have been normal like always if she had been able to watch for only 5 minutes more.

But for those few moments Carolina was wearing clothes.